Happy 22nd..

It's 2nov in less than 1hr time..I always have this love-hate relationship towards bday...I cant help it, but I always become so emo when its near my bday...LOL..

Uni totally sucks..its so freaking demoralised to see FT doing all the work like no kick..while I'm so lost out there...Lots of work to do...lots of stuff to study and revise...but so little time..and I think I'm really getting older....I cant really stay up late...like wat I did in the past..

The people I met..were generally nice..but its so hard to find a person to be really good friends...maybe this need to take time...but I really in need of someone now..Sometimes I do need a person that I can share my thoughts and problems..without any worries..However everyone has their own thingy to do...commitments...And I dont wanna bother anyone out there..

So I tried being alone..for almost 3/4 of the sem...I was alone..sat @ the back of LT...after lect, went to library alone...not wanting to go lunch with classmates..I just dont wanna interact with anyone...I wanna be independent..I dont wanna have friends! Went movie alone, shopping alone, roaming around aimlessly alone...Then I realise, I really need friends...I need people around me...And the only time that I felt I'm needed = being with my poly mates...At least I found 'myself' when I'm with them...and I do hope, YOU, can join us more often..yes, YOU..

But I will still wanna learn to be alone...I can just do whatever I like...doesnt need to accommodate others...nor pretending to be someone else...

To MJ:

You got to stay focused, and not distracted by other stuff...many thingy out there..is way beyond ur control...If certain stuff doesnt go according to plan, doesnt work out...just ignore it...I know u tend to cry over spilled milk..but no point doing that @ all right? You focusing on thingy that are totally not important..compared to sch work....and regarding 'friends'? If they meant to be..they meant to be...lets not force..neither think too much over it...

Lastly, Happy 22nd....I HOPE..=)

Just another post..=)

Hey tingting..have i ever ask u this question 'wat is ur purpose in life?'

I have been thinking abt it for years..but I don't seems to get any answer...so..wat abt u? =)

=D

I had sent J a sms yesterday..told her abt how I feel..and she didnt reply anything at all...haha! Well..I think no reply is the best reply ba...=) but i will still regard her as friend..! That marks an end to it..so..yup! haha..

Year 2011

2010 is a wonderful year for me..excluding ns..haha!

2nd yr Ns, Ndp, wallaby, my bday, TY's bday and knowing some new friends marked great end for 2010..

2010..is also a yr that I realised I should be waking up..I realised that not all friend will be there for me...even though I treated them quite well...

I'm weak and vulnerable when ppl treated me badly...I'm still easily affected..cos I see friendship as a very important in my life...more important than alot of stuff...

I had enough...I'm sick and tired of all these...I want to be different..I want to be strong..I want to get used to loneliness and being independent...I just want to be a happy and simple me...I dont want to think that much anymore..I dont want to get hurt..

I also dont want love..I dont want to go for it anymore...but I still believe in love...I'm already tired of me putting lots of effort...and see no response...or even giving me a cold shoulder..Relationship should be somethingy mutual....so I will not do anythingy silly or stupid on another girl...unless she feels positive abt me...and that applies to friendship as well....no more Mr Nice..I will just be a quiet, a simple, a neutral and a nobody...=)

I no longer want to waste my time on relationship, on friendship and on any other stuff that isnt important..I want to focus on life after ns...ns left 6mths to go...I'm really happy abt it! But @ the same time...I'm worried abt life in Uni...I'm ultra worried that I'm not able to cope of the work there....So I got to stay focused...and buck up...work really hard...

My new year resolution will be...doing well for uni...realise and fulfilling my dreams...friendship isnt important to me anymore...neither is relationship...but I will never forget those important people in my life...For those who dont treasure me as who I am...I'm done..and I wont be treasuring them as who they are as well...trying hard...but its possible...

Love myself...before loving others....

Cheers 2011...=)

For tingting to know...

I'm currently trying to go for J..but i dont think i can get her @ all..=)

But ever since the saturday..i felt that..actually i dont really know her..

Saturday i met her to grab present for u..some statements of her really shocked me..

We were looking @ clothes..she say she dont know wat to buy for guys..cos she dont really have much close de guy friend..only got 3..and she didnt say me..so r we REALLY not that close in her eyes? Sad..

Then later we walk around..she say she seldom choose present..normally is just chip in..unless if is very close de person..she will make..or really put in alot effort on it..after i hear this..i'm like..WAT ABT ME??? She didnt really gave me a average present..she got me a giant lolipop (which got alot lolipops inside) and think of treating me a meal instead..(which i think that meal will never come..=X) But the thingy is she say if really close then she will do something for the bday person! She like did none for me..so i'm = a nobody? Then y wanna like act as if we r close..and call me dad?

Next..cos i got ask her go out..then recently de outing..she say she cant go..not free..wanna spend more time on studying @ home..cos need to catch up with sch work..prep for exam..then i ask her whens exam..she say May..helo?! may is like 5mths later?! LOL..then saturday..i wanna test water..so i ask her how she normally spend the weekends..she say she will either go out with her sisters (as in jie mei) or just stay @ home and chill..but most of the time will go out..cos mum will ask her to do housework and study if she stays @ home..then i'm like..I THOUGHT U LAST TIME TELL ME U CANT GO OUT..WANNA STUDY..CATCH UP WITH SCH WORK?!?!

Then u know..i gave her a xmas present..its a box of chocolate..i made de..i still put in a box..and tie a ribbon..she received..then ask me y give present etc..and i told her is i made de..she dont have those surprised or happy de look..she just said thank u..how sad can it be?! I put in the effort to make..to buy box..to tie ribbon all for her..and she dont even have the minimum de appreciate! not even an sms to thank..i really very sian diao..so i sms her..she told me she got open it..but never eat it..more sad! I just put 9 pieces of chocolate..since u open le..@ least eat 1 piece to show some appreciation ar..she didnt even eat..she just say she will try another time..if its a normal friend give u..u will @ least try and tell ur friend how is it right..?

Talking abt sms..sometimes i sms her..and most of the time..until the no. 4 or 5 de sms..she jiu wont reply le..starting i feel like wat happen? i also never say offend her de thingy..or watsoever..just casual talk..and she never reply..then 1 day i ask her y..she told me..her hp abit sot..sometimes can send sms..but sometimes cant send out..but i noticed somethingy...everytime i'm with her..she got sms her jie mei..like on ur bday also..she keep sms like non stop..quite frequent..then i'm like..huh? hp never sot orh? Or ONLY sms me then will sot? HAHA..

How sad can it be?!?! I wrote @ fb..dont disappoint me..cos of her reaction when she got the choco..its just plain..she didnt even bother to give a small tiny bite...can u tell me y is she like that?? As in..if she can feel i'm interested in her..and wanna shoo me off by ACTING to heck care me..or turn me off by acting a cold shoulder..then she no need to go to that extend..i rather give up..let her achieve her goal to make me not to like her..and lets be friends..but if now, she is just being natural..like thats how she naturally will do to those unwelcomed de suitors..then i'm really disappointed in her lo..i rather she is acting..i dont wish any of my friends to be like that..

Thats all i wanna say..i know i'm silly..and stupid..shes just waiting for me to confess..and to reject me..but i never want to give her that chance..maybe i should just give up..so that we still can be friends not that paiseh..right tingting? =)

Off I Go~!

Yes yes yes...the day has come....hmmmmmm.......nothingy much to say.......thanks all my friends for everythingy and all the time spent....And.....pray hard for me......!!

I will be good....and be great...will be fine and totally well for me ok! Wahaha...so.....wait for me to come back......=)

Bb..old MJ and his life.....bb my bed, my room, my com, my house.....

Graduation @ NP

Finally I've graduated! After 3yrs in NP..it has reached the end..! Some pics to share first...






































Me and Kahmun = too bored..haha!

























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Next I wanna say Thanks to these ppl...for making my life in NP such a wonderful experience!!


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Xiongxiong and me! He 1 of my 'brothers' in NP....how to say ne..he is really a nice and good guy...I always say his gf will be very fortunate..hahah!! Btw, he also graduated! Abit sad that he isnt in grad gown..But he keep his words to come down to take pics with me..omg..



















Kaihui! She a really nice lady...very into Jay Chou as well..haha! Quite friendly and very lovable..I only can say..shes indeed attractive..cos I heard that she got alot suitors! =X




















Xiongxiong, Kaihui and I were friends since yr1..due to IS..! Even though Kaihui is not @ the same project team as us..but we got close...it is QUITE incredible cos the 3 of us are from diff class in ICT...haha...and we even did a DOTA competition together for our event management module @ yr2! For this group..I only can say...fate brings us together..hahah!!


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They do have couple look...=X

Yiwen and Xiongxiong..I only can say...I love them..haha!!! We been through ups and downs in our IS project @ yr1...that really bond us together...still remembered abt our time when we did our project...it was really hard..and practically is the 3 of us doing the work....and those days that we rushing for the deadline..we stayed back after sch to work....until 8, 9pm..even though its tough...but the 3 of us still stood strong and do our best for the project...its the first time we r project together..and I really felt we have chemistry together! Thank buddha I have them beside me...we did well..and even got AD for the IS...




















Yiwen is very cute right...wahahah!!




















Cast tingting aside first! =X I only can say...yiwen and xiongxiong...thanks for everythingy and I will NEVER forget the times that we spent together..and the HARDSHIP we had during IS...ahaha!!


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He is...none other that LOO TING YU..a very famous guy in my NP life..yes..I think no need INTRO already yea..hahah..hes too WELL KNOWN until zj thought I only have him this only friend in NP..=_="" LOL...He is the other 'brother' of mine in NP....I only can say...we have worked well together in NP..haha..basically other than IS...we had the SAME timetable for the 3 years...Actually we arent that close during yr1....until yr2 onwards..cos we took the same elective...therefore we got close..and if i'm not wrong...from yr2 onwards...all my projects will have him inside..haha...We are also very lucky, doing our attachment @ the same company...and did well also...We even had a KL trip of our own! Thanks xiaoting for everythingy alright...and I will remember the 500bucks promise...haha!

















Tingyu, Bernice and Me..the 3 of us are buddies for our networking elective....1 more guy called yanwen is missing...lol...the MOST memorable event of the 4 of us will be....our maplestory private server! During some lesson...like PWA..we just play in our private server...trying to wear nice nice clothes inside the maple world....its really fun!! And we also bring back a trend, playing gunbound during WT! Hahaha...we even intro this gunbound game to our NAM lecturer for his kids..isnt it great to play some games with ur friends during lesson ne?! =D


















Kahmun, me, Siti and Xiaoting...we are in the same tutorial group - T09...even though ALOT OF PPL DIDNT TURN UP...=X T09 actually we are not really 'bonded'..dont know due to wat..but we really functioned well as small groups..but I will always remember this class alright...the KFC we had..chalet...and stay back late in sch for projects..last min revision for exams...Kahmun..no need to say...read this blog de ppl should know her...we are classmates for literature in sec sch..and we are classmates in NP as well! It has been...5, 6yrs since we know each other...she is a good girl la...just that...her time management really sucks...er...yea...hope she will improve on it..shes too extreme..=X Siti is really the quiet quiet character in the class...basically...SELDOM hear her voice in class...except during presentation..hahah..! But she is really very friendly and nice lady...1 of the TOP student in our class o!! Thanks guy..u all made up T09...! =D




















Jac and me! She is my daugther..cos..she called my daddy..-_-" lol!! Hmm...Basically...we have some story abt how we know each other..haha! I noticed her during yr1...we are of diff class..so..there is like zero percent to know her..She indeed caught my eyes everytime I saw her in sch..btw, this is not a confession session....=X Anyway! After I joined Student Buddy thingy @ Yr2...I got this chance to know her! Waulau...I should have join student council @ Yr1..haha..so..I was lucky to be station with jac's good friend..CHERYL! Xiongxiong and I got 'quite' well with cheryl..and later we get to know jac through her @ that day..WOOOO..and..TADA~! We became friends! Then later...I intro`ed tingting to cheryl and jac..and we became 'lunch kaki'...haha..we tried to have every lunch together @ yr2...our relationship increased over the times...and the 4 of us are great friends together...Thanks jac for making my poly life so...INTERESTING..haha!!


























She is Liting...well...our meeting is...COOL as well..she is in the same course as yiwen, MMA, so..basically me and her = no link...aha..chance to meet dao in sch = zero also, not even mention to be friend...I knew her during...NP's Red Camp! Which is like..open house..then I dont konw whether I tio black magic or wat...cos I volunteered to help out the red camp..EVEN THOUGH none of my friends join the camp...NOT even xiongxiong..haha! I think I was crazy during that time...so...she sat beside me during the briefing @ LT...we chit chatted..and talked abt bday...later after that day..she came to told me she know qinfeng...and she said shes his neighbour..then quite shou..sharing the same bday...! I was like...WOW..sg so small..haha..anyway liting is very friendly and cute la..haha..!


















Berenice and me! Well...no need to say la..she is INDEED pretty right? haha...Hmm...she is xiongxiong's camper if I'm not wrong...he knew her..and...got quite CLOSE later..=X Maybe is due to fate's level is too low ba...never get together...o well...I still thought can call her Da Sao..=X


Next will be REALLY important ppl...(R.I.P....HAHAHAHA....not rest in peace ok!! CHOY!)

































Soonie and Peikshin! Wooo...they are the guest of honour for me and kahmun during that day ok..hhaha!! Kahmun and I attended soonie's graduation the day before...therefore..we r REALLY eager to get soonie to come for our graduation as well...Thanks buddha peikshin is available and happy to come our graduation with soonie...=D Soonie and peikshin..I knew them since sec1...that will be...7, 8yrs already...WOW! Time really flies!! Actually the 2 of them are cliques of kahmun..but..SHOULD BE ALSO CLIQUES OF MINE RIGHT! ahhaha....!!! I really can say the 2 of them = prettier and prettier everytime I saw them..omg...Thanks for them to come down to our graduation...ESPECIALLY is it a morning session...9am....OMG...and soonie still had to reach NUH @ 12pm like that to work...really is very paiseh...So...I'm really glad and thankful for them to come....=D

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Well! No need to say much...My parents on the left of pic..and my aunt on the right of pic..hmm..basically no need to say much..they are the ones who nurture me...and make who I am now...hahaha! Yea..without them = no me...They can be irritating @ times..well, everyone can be irritating @ times..including me =X...But I wanna thank them for making me grow up...And hopefully I can post similar pic like that in 6yrs time...! =P





















Me and Xiaoxia!! Among all the friends above....shes the MOST MOST MOST MOST MOST MOST MOST important to me...WHY?! Cos she is my friend...since pri sch!! I knew and close with her from pri5 onwards..cos I sat behind her during our combined chinese class...she from last time until now...still....VERY QUIET...like bo chap bo chap like that..hahha...We lost contact since we left pri sch, going diff sec sch...BUT fate brought us back together! Very qiao enough..we are @ NP..and in Sch of ICT! I'm abit stunned when I saw her in NP...abit cannot believe my eyes..haha..But we managed to get back in contact..thinking abt it..we are friends for abt...9, 10yrs!! (inclusive of the 4 missing yrs in sec sch =X) She has a name..Judy...but I just like to call her Xiaoxia or Xiaxia..wahahhaha!! Nicer and Cuter...^^ She is most most important to me as she is the only closest pri sch friend of mine...and...she is someone that I can trust her fully...even though her reactions sometime is very cold....but.......I believe shes still warm inside her...ppl who doesnt know her, might think shes cocky....if u know her well...she is actually not like that...We chat often @ msn..and most of the time shes willing to be a good listener..and listen my craps..haha!!! Thanks girl!! No matter what happen, nothingy will change or break our ultimate friendship...To me, shes not only a friend....but a...soulmate perhaps...Xiaxia! You are the best!!! =D


Life in NP is interesting...is fun...is exciting...similarly in sec sch...u have friends, teachers in sch..the ONLY diff will be...you wont be as 'into' the sch..in poly...than in sec sch...I think is cos...in poly..it is a more...'INDEPENDENT society'...u can be a NOBODY in poly...having no life...and simply leave the sch with maybe 10% of poly life memory in mind...unlike in sec sch...u are being 'FORCED' to join cca...and simply u get to use all the rooms and facilities in sec sch..and meet all lvls of ppl in the sch.....so u have NO CHOICE..but to have memories of ur sec sch life in u...=X I'm very thankful that I really did enjoy my poly life...with some great friends...and 'brothers', 'sisters', 'daughter' and also memories of chiong`ing projects and exams...Thank u all my friends who are in my life...Be it whether they attend the ceremony or not...or we have pics taken or not...All of you who appear in my life @ NP...thank you very very very much...and all the best to everyone in life~~~!!!!! =)